I have once read in a Psychology book that girls prefer guys who are close to their father’s trait. We tend to look for our father’s quality and we most often like guys who has them. Sometimes, we recklessly like guys for a good thing they’ve done, but eventually, we will still look for the Daddy things on them and when we don’t see it, we might lose interest. Yet, when we see those, we might just fall in love, like really really really fall in love.

Right now, though, I am not in the goals of finding love, having my first boyfriend and getting into a relationship. I just want to focus on my goals, and follow my Mum’s advice to take it slowly. I know there will be a time for that. It’s just, I’m not ready yet. I want to be just SINGLE–not ‘in a relationship’, not ‘in a mutual understanding’, even not ‘it’s complicated’.

So, today, I kinda have a dilemma moment, and suddenly, the kind of guy who will make me believe in a love (probably) falls into place. I actually don’t know why I’ve gone all MIA when it comes to believing in true love happening to myself. I can’t even take all those melodramatic, flirty, and awkwardness stage of courting.

I guess, the main sign that you’re in love is when you just go with the situation without asking yourself if you’re ready or not… in which case, I am still asking myself, so maybe, I am not yet in love.

But enough of that.

According to an article from the March 2013 issue of Candy, Mr. Perfect only exists in movie. The cliché rich-but-troubled-became-soft guys or the bestfriend-who’d-been-in-love-with-you-for-a-long-time, or even that funny-curly-haired-skinny-guy-you-just-can’t-get-enough-of.

In truth, Robert Alexander III (which is played by Adam Sevani) always come up on my mind when someone asks me what I like about a guy. It’s pretty hard to describe, but, I don’t know, he pops the second I hear that question.

Adam SevaniMaybe because his character possesses these qualities:

Funny and talkative. I am a deadly serious person most of the time. I am also an introvert which means I am not a fan of small talks. But, when someone strikes up a conversation, like a really interesting and funny one, I can’t stop talking too. You know, the kind of guy who talks about the most random things: not just about himself, but also about how little the amount of gravy is on the mashes potato or how dirty the soles of the shoes of a guy we happen to come across on the streets.

Has a good sense of humorSomeone who doesn’t get offended easily and gets that you’re just teasing him. I mostly throw pun on people, things I really don’t mean just to lighten the intensity of his/her mood, so if a guy is too sensitive to that thing, I am finding it hard to get along with him too. Guys with good sense of humor are also witty which makes it an A++

Tall and curly-hairedHe doesn’t have to be tall tall–just taller than me. You know, it’s cute when you say something and he has to lean down a little to hear you clearly. Also, I can just imagine myself falling in love with a guy who has a curly hair and a cute smile on his face. Someone who’s attractive, but doesn’t have the slightest idea that he actually is (or doesn’t boast about it). That’s how Moose actually is, and maybe it’s also the main reason why I like Colin Singleton–the curly-haired, child prodigy, main character of The Abundance of Katherines.

Witty. First and foremost, I am not pining after brainiac. I just think that guys who can easily decide for themselves, those who knows what they want in life, are worth thinking about a future with.

Anti-melodramatic. I really like  funny guys–someone who can make me laugh effortlessly. I mean, when they get serious or sad about a certain thing, they easily say their apologies, direct to the point. They don’t go through a lot of making-you-feel-guilty phases, and it is easier for me. I’m not good in saying “sorry”, but when someone is open-minded and you help each other out after a quarrel, then, it’s better.

Fast-forwardThis is a term I learned from Must Be Love yesterday. It means, when a guy falls in love, he can see a good future with you (like getting married or building a house and family). I am pretty cautious in choosing the “right” person since I’ve had traumas before. I’m pretty good in seeing through people. I can sense if they’re serious, or if they’re just playing around, or if they just want to have some kind of “label”. I think I would really fall in love with a guy who talks about his future with me in a sweet and genuine way. Because, above all things, that very thing matters.

Seventeen. That’s a pretty young age to be serious about stuff like this. Mostly, this is the year when teens like me “experiment” with love until they find the right one. Just this moment, I received a quote saying, “You keep looking for the perfect one that you miss the imperfect person who can make you perfectly happen.” Bullcrap.

Everybody has a flaw. Sometimes, it’s too bad; most times it’s painfully good. This is an ideal that the reckless made up for the cautious one. But guess what? They’re wrong. We don’t look for the perfect one, and just because someone likes us, doesn’t mean we would already bite the chance. We always look for qualities that would suite our taste, that would enliven not just the physical and emotional chemistry, but the feeling of righteousness as well.

Of course, we want the right guy. Of course, we’ll never know when we’ll fall in love. Of course, we don’t want to hurt anybody, but we still have to be honest. But of course, we have our choices too.

In love and relationship, you don’t bear with it. You fall in love and get into a relationship, because you enjoy it and it makes you feel good.

While I am in the search of that funny-curly-haired-skinny-guy-I-just-can’t-get-enough-of, you think deeply about what you really like and make sure of your decisions.


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Take Care of Your Eyes

When I was in my pre-elem days, I remember my Mum always chastising me about reading books in the dim parts of our house, or when the sun is setting. I thought reading while the sun is setting is just some sort of superstitious belief, but I regretted it later.

I started wearing glasses in my first year. I was too dumb to even tell my Mum and Dad about my eyes when I was in grade 5 and grade 6 because I thought it was just some sort of thing I shouldn’t take seriously. I still continued reading even when the light is dim, and I don’t even bother about it until I can’t understand my Algebra lessons, that’s when I asked to have glasses.

glassesWearing glasses is not the slightest bit cute, unless you’re as pretty and adorable as Zooey Deschanel–well, that’s different.

JessSure, wearing glasses makes you look smart and intimidating, but it’s such a hassle especially when you’re wearing it for necessity. I have an astigmatism plus a 500-550 grade which means I will never be able to walk around without my eye support, like ever.

Too bad, I had some aspirations to become sporty. I really felt my regret not taking care of my eyes while watching the final game of DLSU Lady Spikers and ADMU Lady Eagles last week. I mean, I suddenly wanted to learn volleyball and even try out, but I remembered I have glasses and wearing contact lenses looks impossible *sighs*

DLSU-ladyspikers DLSUSo, if your eyes are still good, here are some tips you might want to consider:

  1. Don’t wear glasses that are not suitable for your eyes. One of the main reasons why my eyes had gotten dimmer was because I used some stray eyeglasses I found at home, and though it helped me clear my vision, it made it even bad after some months.
  2. Tell your parents about it immediately. Sure, my family have some financial crisis back then, but I know that if I had said it earlier, I wouldn’t get to this point. So, no matter how hopeless your situation might be at the moment, when it comes to your health, never take it for granted!
  3. Do not read in dim light and during sunset. I have no idea if the sunset thing has some scientific basis, but I guess it’s one of the things that contributed to my situation right now. Reading is fun, and I still read a lot, but don’t be too abusive.
  4. Eat healthy foods, especially Vitamin A. This is too late for me anyway. I am fond of eating leafy vegetables that I tend to ignore carrots and squash. Plus, I had this trauma eating carrots back in Grade 4 when my Lola experimentally mixed it with noodles. Nowadays, I only eat carrots when my Mum mix it with shanghai. So, kids and youngsters, remember to eat more vegetables instead of junks.
  5. Don’t be stubborn. I have to admit that part of what happened to me is because of stubbornness. I mostly ignore my Mum’s ‘lecture’, and so I often end up regretting it in the end. Huh. Listen to your parents. Just because you listen to them doesn’t mean you’re living under their skirts and pants. Mostly, they’re just right all the time, and what they do is for you.

Here’s some carrot encouragement for y’all!

carrotRemember to always take care of your eyes before you regret it.

Your truly,



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Bitter Girls Gone Love

February 14, 2013: I think this was the day when I did something that really want. Not because I am required to do it, and not because someone wants me to do it. I DITCHED JS PROM. I didn’t attend the JS Prom. That’s not a good thing, youngsters. JS is a huge part of your life, especially when you’re a Senior, and it’s your last shot. Yet, I had this feeling that I should not attend, and just when I thought I’d be spending the whole afternoon to myself, Jue agreed to watch a movie with me :)

It was the day when I dressed something out of my usual uncaring self, and so did Jue. here’s a couple of awkward photos I took at home. Hihi. I only used my phone’s (Samsung Galaxy Y) camera that’s why it’s not that good.


awk2Before we go to the movie house up above, I told her I need to eat first since I still haven’t had my lunch. Guess where we ate? You don’t have to, coz you know where.

28Jue and the Krusher

27We went to National for a while.

30 29

After that, we went to watch Safe Haven (see Let’s Get Critical post for some back story). We didn’t have an idea what we’re getting to, but we both loved the movie. It was a perfect V-day movie. Nakakatuwa pa, every time there’s a kissing/love scene, Jue would joke and say, “Hoy bata, uwi na. Bawal yan sa’yo!” HAHA

1After the movie, we bummed around the mall and the Department Store. Of course, we deserved to document our very rare dressing-up moment, so we had some pictures.

As usual, the jologness is evident :p

20I didn’t expect Jue would wear shorts. Lol

11I have a thing for Shoe Pictures, you know.

8Pa-stolen pa ang bata :p

9Sifted through DVDs, but I second thought, so I didn’t buy one even if they’re on sale.

6I got excited when I saw this. Proud GLEEk!


We saw this cute cars which were dressed like a couple! <3

2We learned that there will be a Valentine performance, and we decided to watch it, but first, we went to Artwork.

“Love is the flower you’ve got to let grow.” Sayang, I would have bought this shirt!

7Just the shirt you need in the day you ditched Prom. Haha!

19And so, we watched the show. Coincidentally, it is the school where my Bstfrnd, Jaiyo, is learning his violin: High Strings.

13 12Yeeeeep ;)

22 21The singer (which I take is also their teacher) has a nice soothing voice :)

14And I thought this violinist was cute. Hehe

23We didn’t finish the performance because Jue had to buy materials for her project in Values. I went there with her in National again.

Ang artiii ko.

24The Safe Haven trailer was playing!

16 15Bookmarks :D


26 25For a day, we had a chance to feel pretty and have fun without people having to judge ;)

4Happy Valentine’s Day! HAPPY THURSDAY!



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The El Fili Show

Here are some of the photos on the one occasion I attended the shooting for our El Fili. I am a hemophobic, but the good thing is, I am only afraid of human blood. Hahaha!

First, they had to dress up the old clothes. Meanne told me to dress like them too, but I made an excuse that I am doing something. Hahaha. Di ko feel humiga at duguan. Lol

1Lay down, m’dears!


2Here goes the blood!


6 5

In truth, I didn’t do anything. I’m more of an admirer than a performer :)


Look at the progress!



Ang hot lang ni John Mark!


#TeamCedRee (EX!)

10And lastly, and hinagpis ni Cedie :D


We originally planned to make a movie, but we’ve lacked time, so we only did a trailer. Although it’s missing out on words (and its an essential aspect of a trailer), I’m still proud of the outcome. So, here’s the trailer:

I’m gonna miss this :( Gradution’s only a 17 days away.


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Let’s Get Critical

It has been a long time since I last posted a proper post in my blog. I’ve been too busy with school, and we also have this Weebly blog in English. Now that term’s almost over, and summer’s fast-approaching, I think I will resurface with more posts to come.

While there’s still no new thing from school aside from the fact that we’ve moved to a new building since our beloved DOST was brought down to give way for a building that will prove “greatness”, let me start by movie reviews.

I have watched a lot of movies last February, and early this March too. I think I’ve become critical with movies that I deserve to spill it out. Haha!

Pitch Perfect

PPRating: 2 out of 5

Though it was a fresh approach to the cinema and I think it’s a good start for a first movie (if they’re planning to have a sequel), as a GLEEk, I only rated it 2. Maybe because I’ve seen and heard a lot of musical innovation in GLEE that their stunts in the movie are boring to me. The Treblemakers are fine, but the Dalton Warblers can sing A Capellas better. I just can’t stop comparing this to GLEE. I just hope that if they ever do a sequel, it’d be much better. A lot of my schoolmates are in love with this movie, but it just doesn’t strike me as good.

I don’t know why, it’s not like Pitch Perfect was adapted from a book, but Anna Kendrick doesn’t strike me as suitable for the role of Becca (and even worse, Becca is not a cool name for a main character). I kind of also dislike the fact that she’s paved her way easily to become noticeable by the crowd. Yeah, she’s this stubborn girl who hates her father, but I kind of think that the parts where she “proves” her talents is an attempt for the audience to sympathize and love her. Aubrey, in my opinion, was the nicest character out of all of them.

Nevertheless, I really loved their Titanium version (despite the awkward scene). I realized how awesome it is to hear it sung that way. That’s all.

Upside Down

upside downRating: 2.5 out of 5

I’ve never been a fan of Kiki Dunst. I only bought its DVD mainly because I can’t decide which to watch. I watched it with my cousin, MJ, and he’s totally interested with it. Maybe because of the graphics and the science of it. In the beginning of the movie, my heart was moved by Adam’s (Jim Sturgess) theory about soul mates, but as the movie progresses, I find myself losing interest. It gets very anticlimactic, and I’m not much of a fan of love stories too similar to Romeo and Juliet. I mean, there are love stories that are cute and heart-tugging when they’re willing to break the low, but Adam and Eden’s relationship is just… not interesting in any means. More so, there are love stories which you want the couple to go on their separate ways, and that’s what I wanted to happen in this movie. The ending was too cheesy, and I didn’t like their choices. Just because people are suckers for love doesn’t mean you should give them what they want to rise ticket sales.

Effects were good, but the plot was not.

Crazy Stupid Love

crazy-stupid-love1Rating: 3 out of 5

The only reason this movie got a three from me was because I really liked the chemistry between Ryan Gosling and Emma Stone. I found myself looking out for them while watching the movie, and so I ended up ignoring Hannah’s (Emma Stone) parents which were played by Steve Carell and Julianne Moore. Don’t get me wrong, stories that involve marriage are cute, but I got sort of bored with theirs. Nevertheless, this was a hilarious movie. I though it’s one of those R-18s (No Strings Attached -like), but it turned out to be about family and love. Most parts of the movie were boring, but the ending was good, and I recommend you watch this when you’re feeling enthusiastic and happy.

Jack the Giant Slayer


Rating: 3 out of 5

It was Friday, and I can’t think of something to do, so I asked G to watch this movie with me since he wasn’t able to treat me to Beautiful Creatures (we had an argument that time). There weren’t much choice, actually: Die Hard 5 (Not an action fan), Silver Linings Playbook (I thought he wouldn’t like a love story), and A Moment In Time (I have an irrational hate-ness over Julia and Coco), so we ended up watching this movie.

He liked it, but I didn’t. Well, I liked it a little. I guess, I’ve already seen the same plot in other movies, the only difference was it has a different setting. It’s still about saving a princess and marrying her in the end. The graphics were good–of course, it’s Warner Bros. But still, it’s same old same old.

Life of Pi

lifeofpiRating: 4 out of 5

I was interested in this movie adaptation even before. That day, I specifically wanted to watch Les Miserables, but we didn’t make it on time, so we ended up watching this. I can’t think of comments for this movie even while I’m watching this. All I know is that i am really interested, and Pi’s personality is fascinating. He’s this kid who believes in three religions (Christianity, Islam, and Hinduism). I can’t forget his father’s line: “Believing in everything is the same thing as not believing in anything at all.” Up until now, I seem to ponder what he said, but I can’t put into words my interpretation about it.

I thought I’d get bored with the whole movie since it’s only him and the Richard Parker (the Tiger), but he’s been through a lot of adventures that I am compelled and amazed as to how he survived. I think this movie only proves that some people only believe what their minds want to accept.

I’m still wondering though, why didn’t Richard Parker look back as he goes inside the jungle? :(

Silver Linings Playbook

SLPRating: 4.5 out of 5

Here’s some background story of how I ended up watching this. Originally, I only wanted to accompany G in printing his newspaper for Journ, so I decided to wear my old maong short and favorite red monkey shirt. When I got to McDo where we’re supposed to meet, he decided to go to SM, and I’ve no choice but to go as well even if I’m only wearing flip flops, and I really thought he’s just buying something in NBS.

When we got there, he suddenly asked me if I’ve already seen Sliver Linings Playbook, and I said I haven’t, and then he said that we’ll watch it. And I was like, “OMG. Nakapambahay lang ako.” Pero no choice, so we watched it.

I was kind of weirded out by the start of the movie since it’s about this guy, Patrick, who has a bipolar disorder who can’t get over his wife. Then there’s Tiffany who’s husband died and was fired for having sex with every one in her office. I mean, if you’re a person who can’t take that much, you won’t be able to cope with these kind of things. Some people says it’s an “adult Perks”, but I never even thought about it while watching SLP. Besides, SLP was way hilarious than Perks was. I liked Perks, but it didn’t stick the way SLP did. To me, they were entirely different.

Well, in the beginning, I was bored, and we lost count of the number of times the characters used the word “fuck” (which surfaces in every conversation, by the way) in every situation. Nonetheless, I found myself enjoying as the movies goes. The characters were all fun to watch, and I am really happy and satisfied with the ending. I also thought Jen Law made a nice job playing Tiffany. No wonder she was Best Actress.

Forrest Gump

forrest gumpRating: 5 out of 5

Yes, I only watched it this year. My Mum told me years ago that this is a very inspiring movie. It was only when Sir Mon said a quote from the movie (“Life is like a box of chocolate. You’ll never know what you’re going to get) that I thought of watching it for real. Aside from the fact that I have something I needed to cry about, this is a true tearjerker. It was very inspiring. You can really relate to the characters and it’s like each one of them connects to you. Tom Hanks did a great job portraying Forrest Gump. I love how, despite his condition and despite the people’s sneers, he managed to do his own thing and become successful. He was a great person, and I guess, I would fall in love with a guy who could care so much like that. His Mom is also really supportive, and it made me realize that despite the fact that I’m always in a fight with my Mum, she’s very important to me.  I would be so glad to listen to his story the whole day even if I don’t make it to my bus.

“Dear God, make me a bird so I can fly away, far, far away.”

Moulin Rouge

mouline rouge

Rating: 5 out of 5

Bree has been talking about this since the start of our Senior year. I’ve no idea what this movie is about, I even though it was an old one. So, when I had the chance, I watched it.

Moulin Rouge is a musical. But, what compelled me to it, is the feel of the whole movie. Some characters make you do awkward facial expressions because of what they do, but mostly, it was so entertaining to watch.

I fell in love with Nicole Kidman the first moment I saw her. She’s such a great actress, and really pretty too. I think I like her hair better in red than blonde. Ewan McGregor, too, was a great actor. Every time there’s a sad scene, I can definitely feel it.

Mostly, when a movie starts funny, and then became sad in the middle, I feel bored. But this one is just so good, I can’t be bothered watching it. It kinda help me understanding some things in life, and it’s really amazing and spectacular. I wish the musical movies nowadays will be as good as this had been.

Safe Haven

safe havenRating: 5 out of 5

Personally, I planned to watch Young Victoria for Valentine’s Day. It was the morning of JS Prom, and since Jue and I are not joining, we decided to watch a movie. I thought Beautiful Creatures was showing that day, but it turned out that it will be played the next day.

The only choice we had was Safa Haven and A Moment in Time. Jue thought that if we watch A Moment In Time, there’s a huge possibility that we’ll regret it, so even if have no idea what Safe Haven’s all about, we watched it.

I think the movie was amazing, because I had goosebumps even from the beginning. It was a romantic thriller, and you’d be really fooled about the main character’s, Katie, true history. I think Julianne Hough and Josh Duhamel have a great chemistry that’s why they got me. Both Jue and I loved it, and I was really touched by the ending. It was one of those rare moments when I have a goofy smile playing right after I get out of the cinema.

Later that night, when I got home, I saw some comments in Facebook that are not very fond of the movie since it’s entirely different from the book. ISN’T THAT ALWAYS THE ISSUE? I’ve gotten tired comparing the book with the movie, but it’s just me, and I can’t blame other people. And so, I read the book, and yes, they were different. But, just so you know, Nicholas Sparks produced the movie which means whatever the developments made by the writers were consulted to him.

I liked the book in the same way that I loved the movie. The thing is, I am happy of the development they’ve made. Someone said “they didn’t go canoeing in the book!”, but I think it’s sweet. Someone had the problem with hair color, but that’s such a minimal problem. Someone said it took long for Katie to tell Alex the truth in the book, but I am taking that it took her little time to tell him about her.

Whichever, I am both happy with the book and the movie, and eventually, people will stop dwelling on that.

Beautiful Creatures

beautiful creatures

Rating: 5 out of 5

Most of my friends in Goodreads thought the Caster Chronicles is lame. I guess, it depends on the person reading it, and I’ve still yet to finish the first book. Am I too shallow to like this series? I guess not. We have different tastes, anyway.

The thing is, I’ve watched the movie even before I read the first book. But trust me when I say that if I find the book better than the movie, I’d be willing to criticize it even if I’ve watched it first. But then again, I’ve long since stopped comparing them to the point that I’d be enraged.

When I first watched its trailer, all I can think about is that I want to watch it merely because I need something to do on V-day. I wasn’t able to watch it on V-day since it wasn’t showing at that time, but I saw it last week, and I must say that I really enjoyed watching it.

Lena Duchannes, who was played by Alice Englert, recently moved into town to her Uncle Macon Ravenwood’s old plantation house. On the one hand, Ethan Wate, who was played by Alden Ehrenreich, has been dreaming about a mysterious girl which turned out to be Lena, of course. Lena is about to be claimed, whether by evil or good, on her 16th birthday, and she still has yet to find out what will break the curse.

The effects used in the movie were really good. I especially love it when Lena’s getting angry, with those twirling table and ‘incidental’ hurricane. But mostly, I just find Ethan Wate hilarious and sweet. I mean, when I watched the trailer, I thought the guy wasn’t attractive and I didn’t think I’d like him. Still, his wit and confidence got made me enjoy the entire movie. I also thought their love story will be similar to the corny-ness of Bella’s and Edward’s, but they made their best to remain the love nature of high school students. God, I am dying to see the next movie, and I hope that love between this two will remain cute and at the same time, touching :)

Favorite line from Ethan Wate:

“No! I’m sick of listening to your family. I have been chased, spun, hypnotized, paralyzed, and damn near killed by your family. I have been going out of my mind for the past two weeks, then your mother shows up on my door step and damn near gives me a heart attack but you know what I don’t care about them, about the curse, you are not going dark and you are not losing me! No matter what they do, no matter what they do to me, I’m still here.”

“Everybody has to deal with shit in their lives Lena. You want to be a normal human what do you think that is? We don’t have powers to change anything anytime we want. Being human is feeling bad, it’s feeling pissed off, it’s feeling scared, it’s you not being able to do anything about it until you don’t feel that way anymore till you can just see your way out of it. And I yelled at you because I care about you, that’s what normal people do who love each other! When one of them is acting like a brat! Now would you please stop raining on me!”


So, which movies have you seen recently, and what are you looking forward to this year?


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We’ll See.

Oftentimes, movie adaptations don’t give justice to the book, but I have been too prone to a lot of them that I don’t bother to hate them too much. Sure, I notice slight differences, but if it’s just minimal, I don’t get too bothered by it.

Currently, I have three movies I’m planning to watch since the trailer looks good. I hope they don’t disappoint.

Hansel and Gretel

hanselandgretelI am not really fond of fairy tales modified into something more than it really is. I mean, remember Red Riding Hood and Snow White and the Huntsman. I didn’t watch them (even though I wanted to) since I can’t find any trace of similarity between the movie and the real story.

Though, at some point, Hansel and Gretel is quite intriguing. It’s pretty much like a projection of what might happen to these siblings had their parents didn’t come back for them. Wait, is that really the ending? Haha. Correct me if I’m wrong. I’m kinda hooked to a lot of contemporary novels today that I sometimes forget what happened in the old tales.

Beautiful Creatures

beautifulcreaturesThis poster reminds me so much of Gossip Girl. Haha! I mean, the concept, the emotion, it’s just so Gossip Girl. Plus, it looks more like a TV show poster than a movie poster. But so much for that. I am hoping I’d be able to read the book first before I watch it. Although, February 14 is not too far away now.

Beautiful Creatures is a part of a series, so if this movie is a success, a possibility of part two is high. For the record, I read a lot of series before I get hooked to young adults. Now, I am feeling lazy every time I’d read a series especially if it’s adventure. Last month, I bought Mark of Athena (the third series to Rick Riordan’s Heroes of Olympus); I’ve already lent it to my brother and my friend, Meanne. They both said it was good, but I am still on page 30 or something.

I think, to be able to actually start reading the Beautiful Creatures series, I need to watch it first. Sometimes watching the movies first can help you decide whether a certain book is worth reading (the same case that happened to me with Percy Jackson and the Olympus).

The Host

thehostLuckily, this won’t be on the theaters until March. I’m currently reading it courtesy of my ever good friend, Jana. I like it actually, but I’m too busy with school works right now that I’m not yet halfway through it. I intend to read it more this weekend so I’ll be able to catch up on the next book I need to read thru my phone.

The trailer looks promising. I think, a lot of movie-makers today are inspired by Hunger Games. They’re making the characters and plots really similar to what’s written in the book. I am not a fan of Stephenie Meyer’s for the record; I don’t even know why I’ve read all her books and watched all the Twilight movies–in theaters, by the way. I pretty much hope that The Host will not disappoint–both the book and the movie–and that Melanie/Wanderer is not as weak as Bella when it comes to the guy she loves. Ooops. There I go again.

What movies do you intend to watch this year? Share!


P. S.

Next up–Book reviews on: Abundance of Katherines, The Night Circus, and Every Day

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C’est La Vie

There are a few things in this world that should be left within the confines of your heart. You don’t want to share them because you fear people might start looking at you like you have some contagious disease, and they don’t want to come near you.

I am not a very secretive person. Most of the people I know knows about my family, my whole life, and at times, the guys I’m having a crush on. I am not just an open book, I am the text itself.

Still, words have a lot of meanings behind them. I never thought I would have a string of confessions to make today. Maybe some of you knows about it already, maybe some of you don’t. Either way, I’d like to share it with you.

The SIP Syndrome

sipI hated SIP ever since third year. Not because it’s a lot of work to do, and not because your whole schedule can get messed up for experimentation and trials. I hate SIP because I don’t see the sense in discovering new things and using unused things to make a significant study. Oftentimes, my frustration comes from this subject.

This year, I’ve acquired the what I call ‘SIP Syndrome’. Every time I’d think about Research, my stomach will twist into knots as if I feel something bad will happen. I get paranoid every time I hear dead lines. Let me rephrase Augustus Water’s line in TFIOS: “I fear Research and SIP. I fear it like a proverbial blind man who’s afraid of the dark.”

I guess I was just never a fan of science. Truth is, despite all the wonders happening in the world, I’m still skeptic at some of its theories and systems.

I Love Calculus

calculusMost of you have probably heard me say, “I hate Math” most of the time, and yes, I do. But I only realized this month that Calculus is an exception. While it is true that I’ve said quite some tears when I can’t solve a certain problem and I can’t remember how to doit, when it comes to Calculus, I always feel challenged. It’s like something possesses me when I am in a particular good mood to decode a string of x’s and y’s.

I am also admitting that, out of all the Math teachers I had since first year, I think Mam Cabungcal is the most effective one. You know, I actually listen to her lessons and understand them. When I did something wrong while solving, I know it’s my problem and not hers. Maybe this is a good start considering I’d be taking up Accountancy next year.

Poem Poop

poetryOne of the main reasons why I can’t finish most of the stories I’m writing is because I am not creative enough. I am a type of writer who likes writing using my comfortable languages. I am really straightforward, and I don’t like spouting flowery words or comparing teens with grasses or thinking up four strings of adjective to describe the smell of a field.

Sir ROE often tells me that I should get past my boundaries in writing. I tried many times, but I just can’t leave behind my old ways. Thus, this is also the main reason why I suck big time when it comes to poetry writing. I am so straightforward, I can’t even think of a symbolism for love (which is obviously easy since there are so many). Even as I try my best, I suck so hard at it and I feel ashamed if someone happens to read it.

That’s the main reason why I don’t encourage you to open my Lit Attempts!

Class History

classhistoryWhen it was announced that I am assigned to write the class history, I honestly and admittedly felt down. It’s not that I think highly of myself. It’s just that a lot of people has repeatedly told me that I would write the Prologue or the Epilogue for the yearbook, that when I learned the real thing, it’s a pretty bad bum.

Nevertheless, as I write it, I came to love it. Jessica told me that I should be happy because out of all the parts of the yearbook, it is the most strenuous to do–and it is! GLEE and The Fault In Our Stars were my two inspirations while writing it, so I am pretty satisfied of my piece :)

Eyyow GG!

snsdAsk Aline and she’ll definitely testify and tell you about how many times have I said that I HATE K-POP. I never understood why I don’t enjoy listening to their songs. I mean, I like–scratch that, LOVE–watching Koreanovelas and listening to their theme songs but I still hate Kpop. Well, not until I watched Love Rain and came to love Yoona.

snsdyooonaYoona played two roles in Love Rain: one is a very modest 1970s girl, and a present-time bubbly girl. I adored her style in the Kdrama, also her hair, and the fact that she and Jang Geun Suk (male lead of Love Rain) looks good together. I think she’s one of the prettiest girls I’ve seen in my entire life.

So, when this comeback music of Girls Generation came out in early January, I came to love the whole group as well (though I still don’t know each girl’s names except for Yoona’s). With all the cute dances and catchy tune of the songs, I just couldn’t ask for more!

snsdigotaboySo far, GG’s the only KPOP group that I like.

French Fries Fever (FFF)

kfcKFC is my favorite fast food chain in the world! Every time we’d get our monthly ‘pay day’ from my Dad, I’d always bring my Mum and my brothers to KFC. When my aunt asks me where I want to eat, I’d say KFC without a second thought. She even told me that she became a KFC-addict because of me.

I don’t know, but I just love KFC’s Chicken Fillet Sandwich, Mashed Potato, Alfredo Pasta Bowl. But, the best among the best is their FRENCH FRIES! Once I ordered, I’d ask for an extra plate where I’d pour them all and bathe it with KFC’s finger-lickin’ gravy. Uh, heaven!

Kiss Junkie (Knovela)

kiss2(Dream High| Jin Guk x Hye Mi)

kiss1(Love Rain| Jun x Hana)

kiss3(City Hunter| Yoon Seung x Na Na)

kiss4(Rooftop Prince| Lee Gak x Park Ha)

bof(Boys Over Flowers| Jun Pyo x Jan Di)

kissbest(Princess Hours/Goong| Shin x Chae Gyung)

I will be a huge hypocrite if I told you I don’t wait for the kissing scenes in the Koreanovelas that I watch. I haven’t seen too many of them because I am choosy and I want it to be worth my pagpupuyat.

When I get really interested in the drama, I’d stay up until dawn to watch most of it or finish it (of course, I only do this during vacation and weekends). Korean kisses are cute and kilig-filled. I don’t have to feel awkward while watching it with my Mom or brothers because you can feel the love. Unlike some Filipino teleseryes where they make it torrid (ugh much).

Something Borrowed

Something BorrowedSomething Borrowed is a novel-turned-movie that tells about two best friends since childhood. Darcy is about to get married with Dex who was Rachel’s college love. After Rachel’s thirtieth birthday party, she and Dex went to get a post-drink and there she admitted that she was in love with him back then. So, Dex also admitted that he’s also in love with him. The cheating started, Rachel felt so guilty, but then she wanted to fight for their love. Apparently, Dex was too coward to fight for her. Darcy knew about it, and their friendship blew.

But (spoiler’s alert) , towards the end of the movie, they didn’t fully reconcile. Rachel and Dex ended up together while Darcy is pregnant with a guy she hooked up with while she was still engaged to Dex. Still, you can see that despite all that they’ve been through, they’re best friends no matter what.

somethingborrowed2Aline and I had a tough year. We’ve been best friends for almost seven years now, and last year was the only time we ever had a HUGE fight. I guess, at some point, I was too overbearing and she was too neglective of our friendship. I did give up on her, and I moved on. But I know in my heart that she will always be my best best best best friend no matter what. Like Rachel, I took some time to find my worth, to feel that for once, I am doing things entirely for my own. I learned to be mature, and now Aline and I were fine.

Gone were my insecurities with her circle of friends. Gone were my too overbearing attitude. She’s my best friend, and will always be.  Love you Adormeo! x


mephobiaSelf-centered bitch is the right term. The only thing is my “MEphobia” is not one that aims to become popular and look awesome. I am a kind of girl who likes to do everything in my own. I’d rather write the whole SIP write-ups than have other people jumble my thoughts while I’m at it. If I was also assigned to do my own Research Paper in English, I’d willingly do it, but it’s fine to have a partner–I could never have thought of a better one than Euan.

Anyway, I also have a tendency to just enjoy most of the time myself than spend it with other people. I go to the mall on my own, buy books or occasionally, some clothes. I was so used to doing things my own that I often forget there are other people who needs me to value their worth. So, now, I am trying my best to divide my time for my family, my best friends, and someone special (not in the sort of way you’re thinking about, no!).

I’m still 75% selfish though.

Once Upon a Time…

mumThis was taken two days ago in KFC. My Mum, brothers and I went to eat dinner there after we got my our “payday” from my Tatay. Hihi.

There was never a time in my life where I’ve had a family picture. There was one I’ve had when I was a little less than five with my Mum, Dad, and Jose Mari, but never a complete one with the whole family. And so to speak, I once hated my Mum for it.

What if she held on a little longer for my father? What if she didn’t return him to my Grandparents while he’s in the hospital? Would my life turned out better than it was today? But I think I really can’t blame her because maybe she held on for too long and she decided it’s time to give up. I don’t know. All I know is, I’m hoping we’ll have a family picture someday… just the five of us.

Plays Pretty


playspretty2I am definitely not the “chic” type, no! But in my heart, I am always a girl, and there are times in my life when I just want to get the attention of some boys and maybe break their heart. Haha! Apparently, I am not gorgeous or pretty enough to do that. I am just a simple girl who wears simple clothes and some crooked teeth as if shouting to the world, “I AM NOT ATTRACTIVE!” Everyone would agree I’ve got a–ahem–‘flawless’ legs but they’re too big and my lower extremities are not proportion with the upper ones.

Still, there are times when I just want to dress up or curl my hair to give myself some confidence. I only realized this year that clothes do give you confidence and that you should always choose the ones that will make you feel comfortable. Sometimes people would stare or compliment me whenever I’m not in my ‘usual’ outfits, but hey, stare all the way, I like what I’m wearing!

 Boo Elem Days

elemdaysElementary was such a painful memory to me that my defense mechanism works up every time it crosses my mind. Especially that time in grade six when I was so insecure with myself that I once thought being like a popular girl will do me good. Not.

I remember very vividly the mean things I did way back then. I learned to say bad words, make papansin to boys, and I even almost had my first boyfriend back then. Luckily, I didn’t otherwise, I’m afraid I’d turn out like some of the classmates I had then that are only thinking about boys.

The only good memories I had with elementary are the teachers I learned to love: Mrs. Yu, Sir Larry, Ma’am Josh, Sir Cada, and of course, Ma’am Pastrana. She was the one who honed my talent in writing and I owe my success in feature writer to her.

Now, gone are the insecure days, I guess I’ve matured a bit.

Hair Issues



hairissues3As you all probably know, my hair suffers a lot when I’m depressed, and it suffered a lot this year. Some people think that I’ve cut it because of the heartbreak I had with Ert, but they were wrong.

Maybe he’s one of the reasons, but cutting my hair to such a short length is also a cry for freedom–a freedom that I wanted from my two best friends: Aline and Jaiyo. Like I’ve said before, it was such a tough year for us. Partly because they had more life without me, and partly because I was selfish for attention.

But thanks to my haircut, I am freed. The three of us were in good ties now. And it’s funny that nowadays, when Aline talks about her sleepover with her ‘gang’, I don’t feel jealous anymore. It feels like I’m listening to an old story I’ve heard before. When Jaiyo tells me about him and Patrice, I am really supportive because my hateness towards her are all gone and dissipated.

My life before was full of fear of getting left behind, but when I looked, there are still people who are there for me when one moves forward. The “Joyce” today remains firm on her ground and she just keeps looking for some friends to stop over.

Anti-JS Party + Bitter’s Day

Once upon a Junior Year, a few days after February 10, I am excited to attend Senior Prom again, but why am I ditching it this year? The truth is, I feel kind of bitter when I remember it.

First, during the start of the prom, the music was a pop one and there’s this group of boys who are in a train and moving around so fast. We were in a huge circle and having a kind of showdown when that group interrupted us by going through our circle and they so, RUDELY, knocked me over. I let it pass because I don’t want it to get to me that time, but I still fee; bad about it.

Second, I think it’s not a night for friends to have a fun time, because trust me, I am having more fun with my classmates goofing around in DOST than wearing expensive dresses during prom. Prom, it has occurred to me, is a night for lovers to PDA openly without a few pair of eyes judging them. Sir ROE said we should attend it, but I don’t know, even if I convince myself to join, I can’t bring myself to it. Non je ne regrette rien.

I’d just watch Beautiful Creatures with Jue instead!

Sucker for Love?

suckerforloveFunny how I don’t believe in love but a sucker for it in some ways. Yes, I am sucker for love. I enjoy watching romantic films, saving quotes about love, reading John Green’s novel, gushing on Kim Chiu and Xian Lim or Kathryn Bernardo and Daniel Padilla or Miles Ocampo and Marco Gumabao. Yet, I can’t bring myself to believe love will happen to me.

To me, “I love you” should be said to someone special to you when you decided s/he’s really worth the three words. So many people are rushing to say it that they end up getting maimed in the end. Of course, you’re free of saying it to your friends and to your family, but to a boy friend or girl friend?

For me, Filipinos are so rash when it comes to that. I’ve seen quite a lot of romantic films, most of them American, where the characters think deeply before saying it. They want to be sure that it is true and that it will come from their hearts. So, I think, I will only say this three words to someone special when I decided I am sure of what I’m feeling, and that he’s worth of them.

Demanding Puppy

demandingpuppyMy Mum often say that I am such a bossy person. Whenever I ask a ‘favor’ from my brothers, I will ask them to do it immediately as if the world revolves around me. Being such a demanding bitch supports my selfishness.

Sometimes it’s crazy how random I am. I want people to treat me the same way I treat them. Alas, like a puppy, no matter how demanding and selfish I am, I am very loyal. I am big in trust. I would dearly hate it when someone I treat nice would say bad things about me especially when their bullshits.

I can also be sweet and very generous when I am in the mood. But when someone really pissed me off, I bite hard. Haha! Though, worry not, I don’t get pissed easily these days, and I love the friends I have in my life right now.

got to believe in ma-G-ic

rawrA lot of you are asking me, “Ano’ng meron sa inyo?” The truth is, I also don’t know. The clear thing is, we’re not together, and he’s not courting me or whatsoever. For the record, he and I are not exactly legal to like each other and you probably know why. I have been keeping my feelings to myself for such a long time because I don’t want to make things complicated.

Though, just this January, I took a leap of faith and that’s where the story started. I like him. I do. I don’t know his real deal with me, but I am happy of this ‘arrangement’ we’re in. We’re friends, and I think we’ll have to stick to that.

All I know is he’s really special to me. He makes me feel good about myself. He makes me smile every day, and makes me kilig with his little “ingat ka” and when he checks where I’m going or who I’m with. I love how he describes me as unpredictable, and that he’s trying to understand my characters.

I have no idea where this is going, and we don’t talk about it. I don’t want to talk about it, either, because I don’t want to break the spell I’m in. There are only seven weeks left, and I know, deep down, that at the end of the day, we’ll choose our career more than this ‘thing’ we’re in. While that’s not happening yet, I want to enjoy every possible day and time I get to have with him.


I have always thought that personal dilemma should not be mixed with school, but of course, you can never dodge that. They will always mix no matter what.

Today, I have said so many things. I have poured all my heart out, and though I don’t understand the situation I’m in or even care about what people will say, I am happy that I have learned a lot in the past seventeen years of my life.

My Mum told me to handle my ‘like-life’. My friends are always supportive and they are there for me. There are times when I would feel sad because I lost a contest or two, but such is life. You can’t decide what would be put in your store. It is crazy how some people think that you could control it, but guess what, life is not a Science Investigatory Project that you can manipulate when you want to.

All I know right now is I am happy of what I have and who I am and where I am.

*Photos from Tumblr and Google Image.

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